I feel like I need to take a really big deep breath and slowly exhale……aahhh. Okay, the last two days I feel like I have been testing myself, left and right. How annoying, right? Because I know that I attract everything and I want to attract certain experiences and I also know that when I am experiencing a repeat of certain episodes (life experiences that I do ‘not’ want) that I am in the processes of testing myself to see how I am ‘now’ handling the situation, always with grace of course (not!) Let me explain further. When I am in the (usually long) process of trying to complete a life lesson or soul lesson, that specific experience that I am trying to rid my life of, will creep up from behind and ‘SMACK’ me right across the face! Which of course happened to me today.
Yesterday, however was a little bit easier (sneaky bastards..life lesson I mean) Anyway, I had only little bits of tests yesterday like, being late for appointments and trying hard not to look at the clock, while staying relaxed to pay attention to see if someone was going to pull in front of me and slow down to a crawl (I made it to my destination without a second to spare, but not late and keeping my smile all the while. Ha! take that, self.)
I also, had a great healing session done on me last night which was very spiritually opening. The healing was all done through energy work and might explain why today was so interesting for me or should I say painful. I am probably not making much sense, so let me try to explain further.
A soul lesson consists of an event in one’s life that one does not want and therefore is trying to release and rid themselves of. The less one puts thought and energy into the unwanted, the less it will occur. A life or soul lesson is something that you have been trying to overcome for lifetimes. So, usually it is a biggie, something that makes you feel uncomfortable deep inside and recurs often and with great strength. It also will most likely involve a very close partner (spouse, parent, child, etc.) because the two of you agreed to come in together to help each other overcome and spiritually grow in regards to this certain subject, hence ‘life lesson.’ Once you overcome, that certain experience will no longer be experienced and you will than have ascended.
Now, my personal lesson that I have a co-experiencer with, nipped me in the butt today and I had an unusually hard time letting go, emotionally. My mind was analyzing each word and phrase and emotion and and and.. I finally had to talk it out with another close experiencer (who, ironically, was also experiencing the near exact episode with her co-experiencer – go figure.) We are on the same spiritual page so it made it easy for us to counsel each other. I would say things like, “I know that in order for me emerge from this hole, I need to let go and actually ‘stop’ talking about it and analyzing it to death, but ….”, “My emotions are so charged and I just have to release and them and remember (the word ‘remember’ came up a lot) what I know.” This particular soul lesson had been so INfrequent lately, that I know it is almost over, I am almost there, “don’t let this one do you in”, ‘I CAN overcome and release.” Because here is how it works: The more advanced you are in the process of releasing your soul lesson, meaning, not letting it bother you and detaching from the negative energy associated with it, the less ‘it’ will occur in your life. Eventually it will be far and few between, until barely ever. Then “Wham!” it will show its evil face, just to test you and see if you really are over it. How you react will determine if it’s out for good and you move on. So, today I really fought to react in a smart and positive way. I want this b*#@$ to be gone and gone for good! My negative action was short-lived (with work) and I was gratefully rewarded with a more peacefully energetically charged, co-experiencer. I am not fully removed, yet. And I know this because I am only ‘almost’ able to fully disconnect (and still hold compassion at the same time) from the subject of the experience and my co-experiencer. However it is a million times better than it has ever been before in this lifetime and the past lifetimes. So, all in all I end on a happy note with the thoughts of an easy and peaceful present (I almost said future, oops), filled with love and freedom. Until next time… smiles to all.
From the heart, always,
p.s. I wanted to thank a fellow blogger named, Sarah (firstname.lastname@example.org) for doing a great job on editing my up and coming book. I can’t wait to release it to the public!!! Thanks, Sarah!