I willed myself to overcome my obstacles from the previous day and it worked. My weekend consisted of pleasant surprises. I was able to get out and connect with some new friends and be in the position to observe many people from afar (I have always, since I can remember, been a quiet observer, a deep thinker, without the need to interact or be center stage – not that I can’t or don’t enjoy talking with everyone because I love that just as much, but I have always been just as comfy gently observing the actions and interactions of others, (to bad it is considered ‘rude’ to stare).) I especially love it when I meet someone new and find an instant connection with them and can get excited about reconnecting with them in the near future (I guess that’s called – making new friends, which is always exciting when you are older or should I say ‘more advanced in years.’) I may jump around a bit today, for I seem to be a bit scatter brained (too much wine last night??)
I did find myself battling with a little bit of self-bashing, off and on. You know, the basics (I have a previous posting on this topic, if you are interested) “I should, could, be better at….. mothering, being a wife, being a money manager, being a friend, why haven’t I called my grandmother in so long (guilt), I need to be a better house keeper, laundry manager, I should (my husband would say ‘need’) to learn how to be a better cook, a more sufficient shopper, stop procrastinating on any and everything like the laundry, I even think that I thought I could give more effort in the bedroom (and I am really, really awesome in that department!)
Which brings me to my next discussion jump – Why do we carry the false premise that we can say a million ‘bad’ things about ourselves, yet cringe in embarrassment when we say something great about ourselves. We should be walking around all day long just blabbing out all kinds of wonderful comments about how wonderful we are, like “Hey, did you know that I am really good at doing cartwheels?” or “Hey, did you know that I have really nice nails, here have a look?” or “Hey, did you know that I am really good at money managing, here look at my last bank statement?” or maybe, “Hey, did you know that I have an amazing muscle formation right here, you wanna see?” or “Hey did you know that I have a brain that works something like ‘rain-man’ yet I can socialize perfectly well at the same time?” (I am not speaking of self when I give these examples, but I know there are people out there with all of these traits.) So, why can’t we do this? (Alright, I have to take a quick break – I will be back in an hour, I have to teach a fitness class.)
Okay – back, and feel much more energized! Can we go around talking ourselves up instead of down? Why not? Well, if we’re not comfortable saying how great we are out-loud, we sure can say it in our minds! So, this week I am going to really work on that and you should too! I did manifest a few little things this weekend, like a night out with my man and a night in with my man (he,he,he..) I also received more requests for another stretch and fitness class, although I am running out of teaching hours (of course, when you no longer give the energy into ‘wanting’ something that you don’t have, it appears from all angles.) Therefore I am trying to enjoy the late manifestation of that (better late than never, right?) I have been thinking of a certain person for a while and ran into someone who is still in regular contact with them, and was able to tell me all about what they have been up to, so that’s always fun! hmm.. what else.. oh, I was discussing the big lottery subject all last week (but who wasn’t) and I was discussing the authors Jerry and Esther Hicks (Abraham) and was lead to check out a fellow blogger’s blog, happened to scroll way down further than I would normally and what do you know….she graciously posted a 2 part short video of Esther (Abraham) giving a lecture on ‘winning the lottery’, just for me! (ha,ha) These are the tiny and timely little things that most just call coincidences, however I like to pay attention and appreciate the little things as being a deliberate creator. My husband and I also had a lot of occurrences where we would say something and the speaker on t.v. says the exact same thing at the exact same time.. That’s always fun, too. So, this week I am working on three things: time management, self-love, and letting go of false premises (beliefs that hold me back from positive growth and manifestations.) Oh, and one more thing (because I need more, right?) not procrastinating on all the little things, get it done and then go have fun!!! Wish me luck. I hope everyone noticed something special throughout their days this weekend and also, try to work on a few things for themselves like self love (keeping personal door open to desired manifestations!) Until next time….
From the heart always,